“Oh yeah… I’ve thought about killing myself all the time. It’s always [an] option and [expletive]. Like Louis C.K.. said: I flip through the manual. I weigh all the options. I’m just having this epiphany now, ’cause I didn’t do it, but I did think it all the way through. But if I didn’t think it all the way through, then it’s actually maybe more of a chance of it happening.”