Colton Haynes is on one of the covers of Attitude’s 25th Anniversary issue and in it he goes deep. The messiness with his flower daddy huband, Jeff Leatham, are well known. They were married by the devil and then they broke up six months later and rumors of cheating were shot down by Colton, but we didn’t really know what was up. They ended up back together last October and it was like: “Wow how dramatic was that?” but girl, that relationship garbage isn’t even the half of it. Colton and Jeff ended up breaking up again. And in the new issue of Attitude, Colton talks about his serious battle with substance abuse and how it led to seizures and being put on a psyche hold. Yeah, and you thought the flower daddy was the drama.
Colton is 30 years old and he says that he was drunk for basically a third of his life:
“In 10 years, there were maybe 25 days I didn’t drink… I remember when I started, it was a couple glasses of wine, and it regressed into really dark times. I used to blame it on my anxiety or depression issues, but really the root of all my problems was the alcohol and drugs.”
After he came out in 2016, he began hitting the bottle harder and in 2018, with his marriage and subsequent divorce, it only got worse. And then things went all the way dark for Colton when he had to deal with his mother’s death:
“I came out and, in a way, my downward spiral started… I felt extremely free but at the same time the amount of attention I was getting was making me spin out of control… I got married and that didn’t work out. That was extremely public and heart-breaking, and right when that was going on, my mom died. At that point I fell apart. My brain broke. I was doing a massive comedy for a studio, showed up to work and got fired on the first day. They said I looked as if I had ‘dead in my eyes’, and I did. I got so heavily involved with drugs and alcohol to mask the amount of pain I was feeling that I couldn’t even make some decisions for myself. I was drowning in my own shit.”
Rock bottom for Colton was being found at the Waldorf Astoria in acting a full-Gary Busey. This ended up causing near blindness and seizures:
“I locked myself in a hotel room at the Waldorf Astoria in Beverly Hills for seven days and was found in my room with these insane bruises all over my body… It looked as if somebody had beaten the shit out of me. I couldn’t walk, so I was falling everywhere. I almost ruptured my kidney, ended up in the hospital, ended up in 5150 psyche hold. I was on such a destructive path that I could not function. I lost partial sight in my left eye for a while. I ended up having two seizures. I didn’t know any of this was happening until I was sober enough to remember it.”
But the “rude awakening” of remembering your alcoholism-induced seizures snapped Colton out of it and he got the help he needed:
“Once I went to treatment, I found this amazing amount of true love for myself, and started figuring out who I am without those vices, and recognizing the people in my life who lifted me up instead of tearing me down… I’m always going to be in recovery. There are so many people struggling out there, but not a lot of them talk about it. Life is much more beautiful than I could have imagined… It’s just a different life now. It’s the best gift I’ve ever been given.”
The article doesn’t state if Colton and Jeff are still back together or not, but I sure hope they are. That is some seriously dark shit for a poor, hot Instagram twunk to deal with, and nothing can help you get through a tough time like a flower daddy. But hopefully this also acts as a warning to people about the dangers of… having Kris Jenner officiate your wedding. Her curse is inescapable!!!!!
Pic: Attitude UK