Sam Smith (who doesn’t want to be alone tonight, alone tonight, alone tonight) has just come out as nonbinary and genderqueer. It all went down in an Instagram interview (so, I just learned that’s a thing) on “I Weigh“, which is Jameela Jamil‘s platform on body positivity. Not only did Sam come forward about his relationship to the gender spectrum, but he got deep, like, therapy deep, on his body issues going back to childhood. Including getting lipo on his mammaries as a pre-teen. I told you it was therapy deep!
Sam claims that as a youngster, doctors told him that he had a surplus of estrogen, and as a result was caring extra weight in his chichis area. Apparently it was pretty awful for Sam, as little kids can be total assholes and were harassing him, so he and his parents decided to do something about it. via Jezebel:
“I had liposuction, I was 12-years old. At the time I think I was very happy about it. It didn’t really change anything. I think I put the weight back on in two weeks because I haven’t figured out my relationship with food, so it didn’t really change anything. But being 12-years-old and having liposuction on your chest is quite a big deal.”
My mom gave all my Barbies away to my best friend when I was 8 years old because we moved, and I thought that was traumatizing. A boy sprouting boobs during the hellish junior high school years sounds like a nightmare, but I did learn that there’s doctors out there who will perform lipo kids going through puberty.
Sam said that being the only gay in the village pushed him to explore his ultra feminine side, but once he moved to London and hung out with other gays from other villages, he realized that he could be more flexible with his identity. He even let loose with a bit of his sex-style, if you’re into that kind of knowledge:
“I had breasts when I was 11-years-old. I have a very feminine body. When I move, when I have sex with men, it’s very feminine… I am feminine in many many ways and I’ve always resented that. I’ve almost been like, ‘no that’s not manly, that’s not this, you’ve got to work out, you’ve got to lose weight, because that’s what men do.’
But I will never look like that because there’s a bit of a woman in me that won’t allow my body to look like that. I put on weight in places that women put on weight, and that springboards everything. That’s me looking at myself like…maybe I’m not a man, maybe I’m not a woman, and maybe that’s okay.”
The full interview is below if you want to hear more about Sam Smith’s body issues, or see what an Instagram interview looks like, or get the dizzies and have to reach for something sturdy while watching the clusterfuck format of this show: