When Beyonce released Lemonade, she heavily implied that Jay-Z might have been two-timing her. Then Jay-Z released his own couples counseling diary of an album, 4:44, and he more than just implied he was hard knocking the life out of other women. Jay-Z wasn’t done talking about how he’s a shitty dude who did his wife dirty. Taking more than one hit must have been one of the conditions set in the Solange Agreement of 2014.
Just like Jesse Williams, Jay gets deep about his personal life in 4:44’s post-mortem, Footnotes for 4:44. Except where Jesse’s angle was that he’s not the bad guy, Jay-Z is that he’s definitely not winning any Husband of the Year trophies. Jay-Z admits that his relationship with Beyonce didn’t just all of a sudden turn to crap; it didn’t start out in a great place either.
“This is my real life. I just ran into this place and we built this big, beautiful mansion of a relationship that wasn’t totally built on the 100 percent truth and it starts cracking. Things start happening that the public can see. Then we had to get to a point of, ‘Okay, tear this down and let’s start from the beginning…It’s the hardest thing I’ve ever done.”
Jay-Z also claimed that he begged Beyonce not to leave him while they were on vacation, and that dealing with those kind of relationship issues was harder than growing up in the projects or getting shot at.
“What is happening to my body right now? Did I just say…’Don’t leave’? All this is new for me.”
He also says that he played 4:44 for Beyonce before anyone else, and I can only imagine the catalogue of looks she was giving him.
“We just got to a place where, in order for this to work, this can’t be fake. Not one ounce. I’m not saying it wasn’t uncomfortable because obviously it was.”
Beyonce got together in 2002 with Jay-Z when she was 21 and he was 33. I don’t know what kind of lie-telling he was doing in the beginning, but I can guess the words “No, I don’t know who is texting my RAZR at 2am” were probably spoken once or twice.
I will admit that I can excuse a 21-year-old Beyonce believing any possible un-truths. I dated an older dude for a moment when I was in my early twenties, and I believed some real bullshit. Like that it’s normal for a dude in his late-30s to somehow always be available to hang out during the day. Young me thought that was cute, but older me knows that’s called being unemployed!