A couple of days ago, This Is Max posted a review of Odd Future member and singer-songwriter Frank Ocean’s album Channel Orange and in their review they speculated that through his song lyrics he was opening up about how he gets the tingles for peen. Frank Ocean responded to the rumors last night by going on Tumblr and posting what was supposed to be the liner notes for his album, which he eloquently wrote last December while on a plane. Frank writes about the first time he wrapped his heart around another and that another was a 19-year-old dude. The whole thing is worth putting your eyeballs on, but here’s a few pieces from it:
4 summers ago, I met somebody. I was 19 years old. He was too. We spent that summer, and the summer after, together. Everyday almost. And on the days we were together, time would glide. Most of the day I’d see him, and his smile. I’d hear his conversation and his silence … until it was time to sleep. Sleep I would often share with him. By the time I realized I was in love, it was malignant. It was hopeless. There was no escaping, no negotiating with the feeling. No choice. It was my first love, it changed my life. Back then, my mind would wander to the women I had been with, the ones I cared for and thought I was in love with. I reminisced about the sentimental songs I enjoyed as a teenager.. The ones I played when I experienced a girlfriend for the first time. I realized they were written in a language I did not speak yet. I realized too much, too quickly. Imagine being thrown from a plane. I wasn’t in a plane though. I was in a Nissan Maxima, the same one I packed up with bags and drove to Los Angeles in.
I sat there and told my friend how I felt. I wept as the words left my mouth. I grieved for them, knowing I could never take them back for myself. He patted my back. He said kind things. He did his best, but he wouldn’t admit the same. He had to go back inside soon. It was late and his girlfriend was waiting for him upstairs. He wouldn’t tell me the truth about his feelings for me for another 3 years. I felt like I’d only imagined reciprocity for years. Now imagine being thrown from a cliff. No, I wasn’t on a cliff, I was still in my car telling myself it was gonna be fine and to take deep breaths. I took the breaths and carried on. I kept up a peculiar friendship with him because I couldn’t imagine keeping up my life without him. I struggled to master myself and my emotions. I wasn’t always successful.
Frank ended it with: “Thanks. To my mother, you raised me strong. I know I’m only braved because you were first … so thank you. All of you. For everything good. I feel like a free man. If I listen closely … I can hear the sky falling too.”
Russell Simmons wrote on Global Grind this morning that this is a big day for hip-hop and it shouldn’t be an issue anymore, but it is and he hopes Frank’s words will help some youngins out there.
The Silver Fox came out on Monday, Frank Ocean came out on Tuesday and it’s only Wednesday! The week is still young. Yes, John Travolta, that’s your cue to start rehearsing your official “coming out” interpretive dance.